It was already 1am i think, me and my friends decided to sleep in my crib, well we're supposed to make song but all of us are tired and sleepy, but two of my friends are certified hardcore. So as usual they won't let us sleep. since all are backs are facing the floor already, we decided to take some rest, but i can't sleep, either my friends also, so i said " pare boy's talk tau!" we thought that only 3 of us are still awake, un pala one of our friends ay gising pa pala hindi namn alam na he was listening, haha. So here it goes the question was passed from yellow to brown. the question was, "how and when did your first kiss happen"? haha very silly question ei! so at first all of us are laughing everytime a story is told. but when it reaches the brown part, all of us turned into a silent little kid, it was supposed to be a chat focusing on green jokes and detailed experinces. But the Brown story is so old yet ears would still listen everytime the mouth throw the words. Lessons in life filled the room, regrets and promises appeared in our minds. It's a stupid idea of mine to make a chat like that, but we're listening to the stories told by each other. this does not qualify as a post for me, but does it feel good?


"binigay ko...wala lng"
-barely brown-


"akala mo lang un, sa umpisa lang masaya"
-yellow ranger-



"ou pare! no joke tlga! hardcore eh!"
-hybrid-


"Dalawang bagay lang naman yan eh, PUSO at PUSON"
-brown-


"siya lang ang taong mamahalin ko nang ganun"

I can't see a thing, walking....still walking..step right..now left..a bit faster..i stopped with my eyes still closed, with my fingers crossed, with my head looking side to side, and my knees shaking in fear. I can still see you PAIN, I can still smell and feel your deep rotting pain. How did you know I'm still here? How funny ei? after I took my first run, we meet again, yes pain we meet again at the same point where I have left you.But wait, did i even know how did i left you? tell me pain..how? Pain I loved you from the very start i met you, I have learned that loving you was such a hard game to play, but still I kept on playing, you made me cry, you made me grab her again, you turned me back into a child, but pain is this the price I have to pay? Now i sit all alone, still I can't see a thing, I can't see anyone, anyone but you. You're still there, just standing, staring at me, but pain I can't take it anymore, Pain you love me but you don't know who I am, Its also the same thing why I Loved you, everytime i think about you this world falls on me, I'm torn between this life I lead and where i stand. Pain please let me go. But pain no matter how hard I tried I can't escape this things inside. But pain this things will fall apart and you will only be the one who knows. I know everything was just I lie, and how can this love be a good thing? when both my eyes can clearly see that I'm just a part of your big picture. Tell me pain, am I right? Soon pain you will know how the world can tear you apart, soon pain we will meet again but this time you won't be looking at me. You will be looking for me.. Listen pain the piano plays our song, the first piece i learned, i never knew it would mean so much.. but pain i made promises, I have said things that you might think I have forgotten, but pain i'm a man with true words, a man without any doubt with his words or even himself...but pain i chose this path, a path where i really don't belong. A path where smiles are made just to make everyone laugh, where tears are not allowed, where everyone seems to find someone, But my path was never made for someone like me before you left me....pain this is not for you..

"who are you pain?"



"Life is like riding a bicycle. You don't fall off unless you plan to stop peddling".






notaboutyou

Ikaw aking kaibigan may tsinelas ka bang suot ngayon? komportable ka ba sa suot mong tsinelas ngaun? aba kung hinde magapalit ka na dahil maraming tsinelas dyan na nais malasap ang iyong paa na puno ng kalyo at pawis.

Para sa mga kapwa kong kalalakihan, naranasan mo ba noong kabataan mo na magsuot ng tsinelas na nagngangalang RAMBO? aba kung hinde sinayang mo ang kabataan mo! ito ay isang uri ng tsinelas na matigas na sa sobrang kapal ay maari mo nang mabutas ang sahig sa tuwing inaapak mo ito sa lupa, kadalasan kulay itim ito at may pulang sabitan ng mga daliri. Sa gilid na parte nito ay makikita mo ang mga kulay na pula, berde, at dilaw, oh di ba reggae ang kulay! pahalang ang direksyon nito at nakapalibot sa gilid ng tsinelas.

"ung rambo? matigas un! parang pag ipinalo mo hinde ln lalatay eh dudugo pa haha"

Spartan, may naaalala ka ba sa salitang yan? hindi ang pelikulang 300 ang pinapahiwatig ko, ito ay isa pang tsinelas na sumakop sa kaisipan ng mga kabataang lalaki, ngunit nagawa din nitong higupin ang sabaw ng kaisipan ng mga kababaihan lalo na ang mga matatanda ginusto nila itong isuot kesa sa nakaugaliang bakya na yari naman sa matigas na kahoy, makapal din ang bakya mas masakit lang pumalo at lumatay, ngunit hindi nakatutok ngayon ang talata na ito sa bakya, balikan natin muli ang Spartan. Ang SPARTAN ay isang tsinelas na manipis lamang kapag binili, mabilis ito mapudpod pero ang kinaganda naman nito kumpara sa RAMBO ay magaan ito at madalas na ginagamit sa mga larong kalye at sa basketbol na may pustang ice 2bg o libreng merienda...ano ba ang itsura ng SPARTAN? para lamang itong rambo ngunit manipis nga lang at mas maraming kulay pwede mong pagpilian hinde katulad ng rambo.

"ung spartan naman...lage ko naiwawala un eh kasi walang kwenta at mabilis madumihan, sarap itapon agad"

Nang lumaon ay nagumpisa nang magsabay-sabay ang ibat ibang klase ng tsinelas, naglabasan na ang maga primayadong uri ng tsinelas at natabunan na ng mga tsinelas na sariling atin, Umangat sa lahat ang tsinelas na JORDAN ito ang tsinelas na kadalasang makikita mo sa mga paa ng "ghetto o hip hop" sila ang mga magkikita mo sa maluluwag ang pananamit at sila din ang may ari ng mga kalsada natin. Ito ay ang tsinelas na sarado ang dulo ngunit nakalabs ang lahat ng daliri mo at may logo ni Michael Jordan na nakabukaka at handa nang dumakdak sa ring. Minsan ay makintab ito, hindi lamang basta makntab kung hindi ubod ng kintab na maari mo pa itong ikasilaw sa tuwing tatama ang liwanag dito. Hinde lamang si Jordan ang nakalagy sa may harap nito, mayroon ding mga logo ng sapatos na napakaimposibleng gumawang ng tsinelas, halimbawa ng maga ito ay ang NIKE, ADIDAS at kung anu anu pa. Kadalasan ito ay ginagamit lamng bilang panlakad sa kalye at hinde para ipanglaro sa court.

"Anu nga ba tawag dun? basta hindi ko naransan isuot un, parang masyado nang panget pag dami ako kapareho"

TINATAMAD NA AKONG PINDUTIN ANG MGA LETRA DITO AT KAILANGAN KO PANG MAGSALIKSIK SA IBAT IBANG URI NG TSINELAS AT ANG MGA NAITULONG NITO SA BANSA


--damn, what a post!--
--i'll post the next part of this maybe next week, there are lots of slippers!!--

I can't take this burden anymore, staying up late while finishing my entries, making and drinking tons of coffee just to make this eyes wide open in front of the glowing box. This night is heavy really heavy. I got this never ending problems, and I'm chasing a never ending make-believe things in my head! oh shit the back pain, here it comes biting and piercing my bones and muscles., Anyway the day was totally great, and it's freaking cold outside even inside the house i can still feel the chills. I was about to sleep before i wrote this, i'm a bit dizzy but i still have duties and responsibilities to fulfill, (closing my eyes for a bit)...alright, I think i need to get some rest, i have so much problems in my head and I'm not EMO haha,

-your not making any sense at all, still you're confused, i want to get you off this skull-

"i'll never fall in line again"

Awww...I can't sleep anyway while i'm working on my entry i always listen to this song, nothing special i just like the song, i can relate a bit, so the song is entitled KUNDIMAN, o like the title unique ba haha i don't know who wrote it but silent sancturay plays this songs... so just below this non-sense introduction are the lyrics hope you enjoy it.:D


KUNDIMAN
by: silent sancturay


Para kang asukal
Sintamis mong magmahal
Para kang pintura
Buhay ko ikaw ang nagpinta
Para kang unan
Pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan
Para kang kumot na yumayakap
Sa tuwing ako’y nalulungkot

(refrain)
Kaya’t wag magtataka
Kung bakit ayaw kitang maawala

(chorus)
Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo
Wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako
Laging umaalalay
Di ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw

Di baleng maghapon umulan
Basta’t ikaw ang sasandalan
Liwanag ng lumulubog na araw
Kay sarap pagmasdan
Lalo na pag nasisinagan ang iyong mukha
Hinding-hindi magsaawa
Ayoko ng magsawa

(repeat refrain & chorus)

(bridge)
Bahala na, ayoko muna magsalita
Hayaan na muna natin ang hatol ng tadhana


--i just felt like happy yet disturbed, i don't know..i need marge---

Damn..this back pain! oh it kills me! i can't stand or even sit for a long time. Anyway its not about the back pain, I didn't came here to press some stupid letters to discuss about my back pain. DAMN here it comes again! "pakshet ansakit tlga!!"

"We don't regret the things we've done, we regret the things that we're supposed to do at that very moment"

Alright let's get this thing started. First, I'm facing the monitor inside this cold and dark room with only the light coming from the monitor serves as my guide in typing my posts. Second, I got fat after our Christmas vacation and guys it's not funny, fuck i hate my body, every time I tried to look at the mirror on our kitchen the first thing you might hear is this..."tangina ang taba ko bwisit!" Third, still and as always I'm confused, in terms of that and this. get it? I got some silly questions in my mind, like why do people change rapidly? Is destiny real? and where can I find god?

i need answers people...be serious...i don't need your stupid opinion. thanks..

and for you my friend, thank you so much, thank you for staying with me, i think i made a wrong decision.

--"Sleeping is the greatest way to escape, just close your eyes, think of darkness, think of silence, and then there you are, right in the middle of your dreams......just right there"

"So many people have come and gone
Their faces fade as the years go by
Yet I still recall as I wander on
As clear as the sun in the summer sky"

-boston-

When?How?Why?..huh?..what!?, Still..i'm here standing alone in cold feet,.waiting for that shit to happen, but when? is it just in my stupid big head? or is it still inside my pumping fist? Get out! Leave me alone! I don't want to feel anything! I'm starting to pity myself!.. but how did you do it? how did you do it so fast? aren't you sincere last time.. are the feelings fake,, or it was just a big bluffing cloud in your head?! I saw vacant spaces in your heart, i saw gaps between you and yourself..not because i saw them it doesn't mean that i have the duty to fill em up, <-----------it's just in my head during our hour..i'm dying,,gently wishing to die in silence, hoping to keep eveything under my bed, HUH?! but i thought,, but you said,,,who is that man?...but.....I need my big pillow, i need marge..i need somthing to make this line smile... now i can't reach you...RUN! night crawler RUN! fuck i want to run!!...SLAP me! punch?! not so hard mate!

it's not you or even her...it's me

"When Im tired and thinking cold
I hide in my music, forget the day
And dream of a girl I used to know
I closed my eyes and she slipped away
She slipped awa y. she slipped away."


yeah..its more than a feeling...yet frail


-sensles-

It was a bright and sunny day, a perfect day to celebrate our victory! After our band won the 1st place in the Battle of the Bands of our school we decided to celebrate as a group instead of dividing the money into five. So we planned to have fun in STAR CITY after having lunch in the Mall of Asia. well here are some pics on that very special day...







Oh before I forgot our so called field trip happened last December 28 2008, Sorry mates if this post came late in your boxes, I didn't have so much time for this. Anyway it was so much fun we enjoyed everything with my sister, and everything wouldn't be perfect without Mr. Lord Windle Tina haha he is a one big sack of shit (joke)..I just can't believe that he took a pee on the walls of the snow world, yeah! he actually painted his urine on the walls made out from ice! I'm really not in the good mood for posting this, that is why i didn't go on so much details about our trip, So i think thats it mejo bitin nga lang tinatamad tlga kasi ako eh.