"So many people have come and gone
Their faces fade as the years go by
Yet I still recall as I wander on
As clear as the sun in the summer sky"

-boston-

When?How?Why?..huh?..what!?, Still..i'm here standing alone in cold feet,.waiting for that shit to happen, but when? is it just in my stupid big head? or is it still inside my pumping fist? Get out! Leave me alone! I don't want to feel anything! I'm starting to pity myself!.. but how did you do it? how did you do it so fast? aren't you sincere last time.. are the feelings fake,, or it was just a big bluffing cloud in your head?! I saw vacant spaces in your heart, i saw gaps between you and yourself..not because i saw them it doesn't mean that i have the duty to fill em up, <-----------it's just in my head during our hour..i'm dying,,gently wishing to die in silence, hoping to keep eveything under my bed, HUH?! but i thought,, but you said,,,who is that man?...but.....I need my big pillow, i need marge..i need somthing to make this line smile... now i can't reach you...RUN! night crawler RUN! fuck i want to run!!...SLAP me! punch?! not so hard mate!

it's not you or even her...it's me

"When Im tired and thinking cold
I hide in my music, forget the day
And dream of a girl I used to know
I closed my eyes and she slipped away
She slipped awa y. she slipped away."


yeah..its more than a feeling...yet frail


-sensles-